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Sunday, October 28, 2007

i'm probably going on hiatus...
few reasons why...

1. my post are going to be horribly long and emo-ish if i do blog,
2. i'm kinda lazy to blog...
3. there is really nothing happy to blog about,
4. i'm soon going into a current state of depression cause of the really boring hols...
5. i don't wanna affect anyone's mood when they read my blog

yupps...
there were somemore actually...
but i can't rmb anymore.
i'll probably only be blogging about church
so you'll probably see me once a week or so...
haix...
my life is currently revolving around GOD only.
i'm not going to care about everything&anything else
and besides...
i can't handle so many emotions at one time
i'll just explode.
seriously...

okay anyway...
ytd was waterfalls day...
thankew actsone peeps for being so caring!
i love you guys loads!
abi, for being such a caring discipler and being there for me!
esther, for being there when everything poured out!
sarah, for listening and being there!
lisa, for being there with me and praying for me!
andy, for praying for me!
fangyu, for being there for me!
trev, for asking me how i was and listening to my whole depressing story on msn!
and for anyone else whom i've forgotten...
thankew for being there for me ytd!
i love you guys loads!
thank you so much!(:

ytd's sermon was about obeying.
then i realise i wasn't really obeying...
well practically everyone.
i've been really horrible this whole year
i dunno...
i'm not usually that horrible...
in my opinion that is.
i feel lyk as i grow everyday...
i want to find a reason for things
and i get really upset when ppl are unreasonable
and they yell at me
then i'll be v. angry then i'll yell back
i'm usually not liddat.
not really...sometimes, yes...
but other times, no.
and now i got myself in this mess...
and i don't really have a way out.
i'm kinda resigning to my fate i guess....
haix...you don't wanna noe.
seriously...
okay anyway...
back to topic.
obedience.
i've not really been obeying God.
as in if he really tells me to do something.
i'll just lyk shrug it off...
thinking it's my own imagination.
and it's lyk i don't do it.
then i disobey God and everything.
haix...
i've no idea wad's wrong with me this year...
seriously...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm pissing myself off!

okay...i think i'd better go...
before i affect anyone.
so cheerios(:

mabTHONG.
i'm such an idiot

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 4:23 PM