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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

i miss you. why do i get the feeling you're shutting me out of your life? i don't know you anymore. i never did actually. you never gave me the chance. now all i do is wait for the day to come when we become complete strangers. it'll happen one day. no matter how much i want to not let it happen.

life sucks to know that everyone is shutting you of out of their lifes.especially people you love a lot and care about a lot. i miss my best friends! they're so MIA. and i miss jiejie and mama! :( i t sucks to know that i might not ever get to see them again!!! :( but i know i won't ever see mama ever again.

i grabbing to every glimmer of hope that i see now. i want to cry. like seriously just break down. i hate it!!! hate it so much! :( i'm super pissed off.

i screwed up big time. and now i have to patch up my mistakes. but the scars i created can never be erased. i wished nothing happened in the first place. haix...

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 7:54 PM

Monday, April 13, 2009

hi! guess what? jong is not here today. so we are having lifeskills in com lab 3. super-dee-duper! cause we can slack, go online and do whatever we want. now that's life! lol.

today started out as a good week, even though i got sent out of class, i'm still keeping my positive attitude! so that i won't beat myself down so much. haha! and i'm pushing myself harder everyday, bit by bit. it's in preparation for O level's mugging. haha! and the teachers' encouragements are helping! haha! i seriously don't want to fail O levels.

chem test today was alright, even though i thought i was going to fail though. i hope i can still pull through everything. and get at least a low A1. cause the test was do-able. and if i fail...i'll be speechless.

i'm going to change my blogskin. make it cream colour this time. haha! and it'll be simple. and during june holidays, i'll create a new personalize blogskin one again. i'm not going to tear down my blog soon. so don't worry! haha!

that's all(: i shall go facebook now to chill :D peace out!

dear God,
thank You for bring me through today so far. i pray that You'll make the rest of my day more productive, as i stay back in school to complete my homework. i pray that You'll give me the strength to persevere, and have the determination to do my work to perfection and completion. AMEN!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 1:42 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

haha! sorry for the lack of updates. life has been busy. like extremely busy. my homework is still piling up. even though i've been clearing as much as i can. and even staying back everyday after school just to clear my homework. even though i can't clock in any hours for the 100-hour challenge

speaking about that. i got 3 hours in already. pretty cool. i'm going to rush through all my homework by this week, so next week i can officially start studying for mid-years. though it's rather late, and mid-years are in 4 weeks time. which seriously? sucks big time.

you have no idea how diligent i have been on the homework front. although i've been really slack in my spiritual life. even though every week i get a wake up call from sarah, during sermon, or even GOD Himself...it's not working. i have no idea what is wrong with my. if you have any idea what is wrong with me, can you at least tell me? please? cause i would seriously like to know. and then please check on me regular to make sure i'm putting effort to change. thanks.

the past 3 weeks since i came back from China has been rather eventful. and i have officially scarred myself for life, by tripping over myself. super uncool. good thing ian and andy were there to save the day. won't know what to do without them man.

i won't be blogging about China, because it will be too long, and i don't really that much time to kill. i haven't even uploaded the photographs from China that i took. i'm too lazy. haha!

i think i shall go now! i'll be sleeping soon! tomorrow is a brand new week! yay! bye!(:

dear God,
i know i've been acting like a brat to You and everybody else, and i'm sorry. You know how hard things have been lately, and it's getting from bad to worse. i'm trying to change. but i'm letting myself slip back to the way i was last year. ignorant, stupid and immature towards your ways and teaching. Lord, please. i need a change, change my heart! i want to lead a new life, not the one that i've been living for the past 15 years. i want to live for You, not for anyone else. i've been looking for love, friendship, happiness, joy, peace and comfort in all the wrong places when You have held Your arms wide open towards me, and yet i don't want to run to You. i need Your strength and guidance, Lord. AMEN.

so near yet so far,
so close yet so distant.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 10:37 PM