her royal highness.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

i can't do this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't! i really can't. but i have to! what would i say? i don't want to help you anymore? questions will sure be fired at me! and i don't want to seem lyk a bad person. what would i say seriously...and if you need help next year? how am i supposed to say no since i want you to pass your exams and everything. this is stupid. why am i doing this to me anyway? i'm supposed to be focused on my own life. not yours. this is crazy. sometimes i just think that i'm too nice. even my cousins and BRYAN (-.-) say so. that's why i'm so easily bullied. haix...

on a brighter side to my day...ohmygoodness! had so much fun today! COUSIN OUTING! haha so fun luh! whooooo!!! i love terrence, kunyao and caspar korkors! haha! so fun! esp...terrence and kunyao korkor...since their not my brothers. haha! their nicer than my kor. we watched wall.e today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoooohoooo! wall.e! i love i love! it's such a cute story. it's kinda lyk a robot love story...even kor thinks that it's nice. and kor lyking a movie is lyk one in a million. haha! then we went to eat buffet! wah! spent lyk 2hours at the buffet, with my daguma and daguzhang, mommy, daddy, and my other cousin. had so much fun crapping and stuff. but my other cousin had a fit. freaked me out quite a bit. i was praying lyk mad. but she's fine now though. so yeah...crapped a lot leh the four of us. (me, kor, terrence kor, kunyao kor) super funny. we were lyk making fun, lyk when we order food that time we'll mess the waiter up badly. but we didn't. haha! we just talked about scenarios and stuff. haha! super crap. i ate so much! i think i put on 1kg. haha! i wanna be heavier...but not grow fatter. there's a difference! haix...i really miss terrence kor...dunno when will be the next time which i can see him! another cousin outing will be planned definitely! and when eleanor jie comes back at the end of the year also! haha! i wanna go out with her! hahaha! :D

okay i shall end her today. tmr will be the start of my mugging alr! all the best to me then! "can't wait" haha! okay i shall end my crapping! bye!(:

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 10:20 PM

Saturday, August 30, 2008

haix...i need to stop living in self denial. lyk seriously...and i need to stop leading myself on. there's no way anything would happen! i need a 180degree change. lyk the one i had in the june hols. i need to go back to the old me again. the happy cheerful me. not the sad depressed emo me. i can't stand it anymore! ARGH!!! i'm going crazy. so glad i missed the lrt ytd. if not i'd seen the 2 of you. i think i would have gone crazy even sooner. but i wished i missed the bus too. then at least i won't be going crazy at all now. i can't be bothered anymore. i'm just going to drop you. just lyk how i dropped the rest of my frens. i need to move on with my life. no point trying to reach for what i cannot have. i need to shut myself off from the world. even though i don't want to. i need to get myself rite first. for now...i'll just shut you and everyone out of my life. so the next time you see me and i'm pissed. don't come any nearer. i might hurt anyone.

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 9:24 AM

Thursday, August 28, 2008

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm lyk dying in ITR 3 luh seriously...this always happen. especially in programming. i wish enoch would quickly come back to school from basketball practice so that we can go home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go home!!!!!!!! but i don't wanna go home alone!!! :( haha. okay i think i'm going high now. i wanna eat a lollipop! but i scared i get diabetes!!! we learnt about that in bio. haha!

okay since i'm so bored...i shall talk about today! whee! :D haha

okay started out as usual with me refusing to wake up. but i did anyway...
left the house at 6.25am...
okay i was kinda late...BUT that was because it was RAINING AND GOT TRAFFIC JAM!
hahahaha

PE was spent in the humanities room watch a movie!
GOAL!!!
ahaha! :D

haix...i gtg...bryan is chasing me! :(
bye!(:

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 5:05 PM

Saturday, August 23, 2008

heyyo! okay...i'm lyk back from church! haha! guess wad i got today in church!

TADA!!!

haha! so cool rite?
lol...random shots i took in my room. there was really nothing to do! haha! thankew mu'en for giving it to me!! :D this huge lollipop is my new found love! hahahahahaha! it weighs lyk 500grams! and it's 1cm thick! lyk seriously! hahaha! i love i love! hahahaha! mu'en said he bought me a lollipop! but i didn't noe it'll be so GIGANTIC! but xinyi had to burst my bubble by said that she got a bigger one for her b'dae. and i thought i had the biggest lollipop in the world :( haha! joking :D it's so rite that the lollipop princess owns such a huge lollipop rite? haha! :D i'm so happy!

cell today was fun! we played taboo! CF's favourite game! haha! anyway...we won the guys hands down! hahaha! the girls rock! then had cell sharing. which was really an "eye-opener". taught me loads of stuff.

the during service...p&w was awesome! we sang 'the stand' which really touched me. cause i rmb last tuesday when we were having chapel, 3E, F & D were in the LT together...and 'the stand' was one of the songs we sang. and guess wad? people were really singing! i felt so touched and was really amazed...cause we were singing!!! i was really happy! lyk seriously...i hope that it won't be a one-off thing. but it'll always be lyk that, and we can lyk encourage all the christians to sing during chapel, and not be embarrassed, cause when we sing during chapel we are singing FOR GOD, and not for our friends. so yupps!

anyway...argh! something wrong with my eyes these few days. i think i'm gonna get off the com soon. cause i'm lyk really tired! haha! and i'm still trying to figure ou how i'm gonna eat my lollipop. haha! i'm gonna share though! cause it's lyk really HUGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahaha!

okay i shall go now! i got tuition tmr! which means that i have to wake up early to do tuition hw...and not only that...i'm going for bible study! but i'm still considering whether i should go for qi en's baptism. okay wadever. bye! (:

mabTHONG.
i love LOLLIPOPS!!! :D

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 9:55 PM

Friday, August 22, 2008

yo! haven't been blogging for quite some time now...i seriously need to start mugging for EOYs soon. if not i'm lyk just gonna do lyk really badly. probably even fail luh seriously...

shocking revelation i found during the course of this week. his brother is in fairfield! so shocked luh! cause i didn't even see he's bro during the first half of the year. then now lyk suddenly see him and recognize him and wadever crap. wah! really really shocked luh! and he's in BB some more! my goodness!

i'm finally catching up on my work. but i think it's lyk a little too late. cause there's lyk only wad? 5 more weeks till EOYs? lyk seriously...freaking nervous luh!

last week was a pretty...pissing week. okay wait...i mean this week actually. super duper hectic. plus some hurtful comments made about me from dad and kor. seriously man! haix. and tuitioning enoch math. when he doesn't get some stuff i really have to wreck my brain trying to think of a way to explain to him. which drives me crazy a little...but i just don't show it. haix...jiayou enoch!

counting down till the days of EOYs...stressed! STRESSED!!!

church tmr! going for church tuition as well...but i forgot to bring home my textbooks! aiyoh...i wonder how ken is gonna teach me tmr with my textbooks. lyk seriously...

staring at him today was funny...but too obvious alr...though he was really far away. under the rain some more luh he...haha! he was doing stupid stuff in the afternoon. lol...

i think my degree increase again. i really cannot see far away stuff luh! i'm lyk very irritated luh! i think it's my astig and not my degree...cause i keep seeing double. lyk literally. sucks to the max luh! hate it so much! rawr!!! i wanna go and have my eyes checked again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rubbish leh seriously...i think i should just get contacts luh seriously! the monthly kind. lyk wad rosanne suggested. haix...i shall consider............cause i'm lyk really broke at the moment. haha! i still have yet to pay the $298 for my phone...die liao luh! i'm lyk really strapped for cash now! i need to start saving lyk madness!

i'm getting hooked on to the eating of wantons together with abijoy, abi sia, celeste and junyi. seriously man! not because i especially lyk them or anything. just that i've got nothing else to eat! kena banned from eating oreo by mommy...cause i eat too much le! i eat lyk 1-2 packets a day luh! haha! on fridays sometimes i will even eat THREE packets of oreo...but the fried wantons aren't v. filling. cause they are really small...and there's lyk really very little meat. it's all the crispy stuff...don't noe wad's it called. i ate lyk 10 fried wantons and 2 crab meat and drank a cup of ribena before i was full luh! lyk seriously! spent $3.60 in total luh! wad a waste of money...usually if i eat my oreo i only spend $0.40 but if i drink a cup of ribena it's only $0.90. can you see the HUGE HUGE difference???? lyk seriously...

wah! almost late for school today luh! i was super early ytd luh! for the first time this year! i reached school at 6.30am luh! enoch luh! haha! needed me to help him revise for his retest...so i met him at senja lrt station for lyk TEN MINUTES! then he finally reached the bus stop he told me to wait at. hopped on to his car (his father was driving) and reached school in record time! hahahaha!

okay...i shall go now...i'm lyk...WAY TIRED! :X bye!(:

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:56 PM

Friday, August 08, 2008

okay...i think i'm sick. i really don't noe...i think i have diabetes...cause the ants and mosquitoes somehow love my blood so much cause it's overly sweet, resulting in really big ant & mosquito bites. then i think i have dengue...cause of all the mosquitoes that bit me, one of them might be carrying the dengue virus, and it decided to bite me. :( then i think i have leukemia, cause i have bruises sometimes when i don't even recall myself hitting anything in that particular area. and i still think i have cancer, cause of all the x-rays i had to do for my spine. great! JUST GREAT! i don't think i'm over reacting at all...i think i really need to see the doctor :(

connecting singapore today was just weird and stupid. i was holding hands with laixing and amelia. and it was really stupid cause the 3F people and 3B if i'm not wrong were attempting to do the wave...haha the slackerhood decided not to join in in the lame-ness. so the wave started at laixing and ended at me. hahaha! but it continued in laixing's other direction. okay whatever. this is stupid. we didn't even know when the actual thing started and when it ended seriously...so freaking stupid. went home straight after with enoch, kenneth, jaryl and some other people. don't even know them.

i've decided...to severe all ties with someone. deleted him off msn and stuff. i really don't care anymore.

if i have a chance to choose...i'd rather be in heaven than on earth. free of backstabbers, heart breakers, hatred, anger and most importantly...life. why? cause i hate it. every aspect of it. besides love...not the BGR kind. the rest of it...i'm not buying it in. i don't care whether i have all the material possession. with love...you're nothing. and that's what i am now...but i'm not going to take my own life away. i'm just gonna let God help me through the rest of life before He takes me with Him.

i'm stressed. beyond stressed.

i'm lonely. but i can't be bother anymore.

i'm crying. but no one is there to care.

life has lost it's meaning.

but guess what?

everything is over.

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 10:48 PM

Sunday, August 03, 2008

okay. i'm back to blogging again...after lyk ages. i noe...but i can't be bothered luh seriously...

i'm kinda anticipating wednesday to come. lyk soon. cause i really can't wait! cause on top of CF i have a new present! and i'm really happy! :D really can't wait alr!!! lyk i've been totally waiting for this day since lyk forever! but finally it's coming! i'm lyk totally gonna go home straight after CF and i'm gonna drag enoch to go home together even if he wants to stay back. hahaha! i really can't wait!!! i need to be home early on wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wanted to go to festival of praise today...but i can't! sorry CF peeps! :X me going to bible study alr got me killed luh...so i really didn't dare to open my mouth to ask my parents. sorry calv! stayed home to watch the day after tmr instead. which is a really cool movie. my 2nd or something fave movie. lol...

i still haven't even done amath 2 hw yet...i'm just gonna die under the hands of LCP tmr...esp if she checks my work...lyk really gonna die. plus all my way way way overdue hw. lyk my JUNE HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i sometimes really wonder wad i'm doing man. i'm just practically pulling down all my marks luh! lyk seriously...but i lyk really cannot be bothered luh...and i don't noe why!!!!!!!!!! WHAT AM I DOING?!?!?!?!?!

haix....................after talking to sarah ytd and crying my heart out...i feel a lot better. thanks for the counselling sarah! i love you! talked to abi too. thanks so much for caring!!! i love you a lot a lot too!!!! :D and kor is gonna help me settle some stuff...but i don't want to get involved in it. lyk really really don't want to...but thanks anyway kor! love you loads!

hahaha really really love the people around me! daddy, mommy, kors, twin cousin! x) BFFs, clique, discipler! cell!!! YI!!!!!!! loads of love peeps! :D

okay i shall go now...i want to watch camp rock! adios peeps! love! byebye!(:

mabTHONG.
spreading my last remaining hope to the people around me

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:18 PM