her royal highness.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

i really don't know what i'm doing anymore.
everyday i come home.
doing nothing is the first thing that comes to mind.
sleeping is the second.
breaking down is the third.
while the rest of my life doesn't matter anymore.
i'm a live walking talking zombie.
i can be surrounded by a million people.
yet as sarah says...
i'm like a lost puppy.
on the outside i really look like a lost puppy...
but inside...
i'm more than lost.
i'm already dying and breaking down every second.
sometimes i wish this would stop happening to me.
but it's too late.
i'm shutting off from the world.
i'm going blind and deaf to the things around me.
if you hate me just say it in my face.
cause i can't care anymore.
just don't spread rumours about me that isn't one bit true.
i don't need your hypocrisy.

True Friend - Miley Cyrus
We sign our cards and letters BFF
You've got a million ways to make me laugh
You're lookin' out for me; you've got my back
It's so good to have you around

You know the secrets I could never tell
And when I'm quiet you break through my shell
Don't feel the need to do a rebel yell
Cause you keep my feet on the ground

You're a true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend

You don't get angry when I change the plans
Somehow you're never out of second chances and
Won't say "I told you" when I'm wrong again
I'm so lucky that I found

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again

True friends will go to the ends of the earth
Till they find the things you need
Friends hang on through the ups and the downs
Cause they've got someone to believe in

A true friend
You're here till the end
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
Don't need to pretend
ohh yeah
A true friend
You're here till the end(till the end)
(Your here till the end)
You pull me aside
When something ain't right
Talk with me now and into the night
'Til it's alright again
You're a true friend
You're a true friend
You're a true friend

i've already lost my one and only true friend
the only genuine friendship i've had.
no strings attached.
but i'm holding onto the next person closest to me.
a special thanks for always keeping me company
and making me laugh when i'm down by crapping around.
your word of encouragements go a long way for me.
you may not know it but it's true.
somehow you're always there for me.
like magic.
but i know you always care for me.
so thanks. it means a lot.

for now i'll lead my life as things go.
i'lll trust on the LORD with all my heart
and you to bring me through this tough time.

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:50 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

i seriously don't noe which is worse...the fact that i'm depressed or the fact that i'm depressed over someone, or the fact that it's been two weeks since i've been depressed...this is WAY depressing...the irony of things :X

sometimes i really wonder what i'm doing with my life...

mabTHONG.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:16 PM

Friday, July 11, 2008

haven't blogged for ages. seems like eternity

today is such a horrible day. the worst ever!

life in 211 will be in torturous silence from now on.
for 5 hours every week
i really wonder why...

the class is SO erm...supportive and nice to me. not.
i just want to fly off the building now.

wake boarding is so fun!
can't wait till i'm able to do it again.

my bruises are getting bigger and ever more painful by the day.
i still can't believe i flew...
like seriously. and literally

breaking news...
my cousin???
seriously...
MY COUSIN?!?!?!?!?!
i can seriously jump off the building now :X

current state of mood: totally shocked and dead embarrassed :X

mabTHONG.
help me somebody!!! call my psychiatrist!!!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 10:49 PM