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Saturday, February 21, 2009

i'm so pissed over wad bestfriend said today (not telling you which. but it can only be two of them and not all three.) seriously. if you don't want me to talk to you/be your friend just tell me straight in my face. don't say until you make me sound so unsuitable to be your friend or something. it hurts when you say such things. every time you say it i have to slow it in. even if YOU think you're joking/think it's funny...it's not. don't say things you don't mean. cause i don't care whether you mean it or not. if you say it means you mean it. i don't know how i'm going to even talk to you anymore since we were nvr really that close after last year.

to my other bestfriend: i know you hate it when i don't open up. and i hate it when you do that to me too. have you realised how awkward things have been over the past few weeks? we aren't even as close as we used to be. it sucks knowing that every time i want to talk to you, you're either too busy or too tired, or you basically don't want to talk to me. that's what i feel whenever i start talking to you. why do i always have to be the one always starting any conversation? what happened between us. i'm still wondering and it's confusing me big time. i rmb last year when we fought and i cried so much cause i didn't know how to face you the next day. it was such a big misunderstanding that caused a lot of hurt for both you and me. but now i don't even say hi to you cause i know how awkward the situation is going to be. have you even realised that i've completely stopped talking to you about things that matter? i don't know...i really am confused.

and to my last bestfriend: haha! keep jiayou-ing okay! 2 months have past alr! the rest will be over soon! can't wait for us to finally go out for lunch. can you stop being so busy/can you take some time off just for me?!?!?!?! -.- what if i really die in china (haha. i'm joking!!) then you can totally entirely forget about your lunch treat alr. haha! so you better be free for lunch before i go china!!!

sorry for ranting again. -.- i'm not being emo!!! i just have a lot of things running through my head at the moment. esp wad bestfriend said. i'm still pissed off!!! :X

anyway...i think i'm going to sleep now. tmr have to wake up at 7 to do tuition hw :X and i'm super tired from flag day today!!! :( so highly irritating!!!

so goodnight folks! bye!(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

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