her royal highness.

Monday, June 29, 2009

regrets.

i really shouldn't be blogging at this time, because i need to do my holiday homework!!! let me reiterate...HOLIDAY homework. my june holiday was too slack alr...seriously. so now i'm paying the price of my mistakes. oh...and did i mention that i haven't started studying for O levels? yeah. i'm so entirely dead.

sigh...i don't know whether to be angry at you or not. how could you be so oblivious to things?? don't forget who you are! the guy i thought i knew isn't such a jerk!

i shall get back to doing my essays now. before mano goes on her CMF booking spree again -.-

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 10:49 PM

Friday, June 26, 2009

missing.

i miss that warm feeling that i had once. i don't know if i'll ever get to experience it again.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 1:53 AM

Thursday, June 25, 2009

unbelievable.

ARIENAITSUNO!!!!!!!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 1:34 AM

Sunday, June 21, 2009

stuck.

there's this saying that's stuck in my head since i saw it...and i'm gonna quote...from watt weihao

you don't need man's affirmation, just God's alone.

yupps. what this phrase says has been reminding me of what is being taught during encounter retreat. what really struck me was how i've always been looking for man's affirmation towards me, yet i don't look into my own heart and see that God has always been living in me, and showing in His numerous ways that i'm perfectly and wonderfully made, because i'm His unique creation.

food for thought(:

it's not how others sees you,
it's about how the heart sees you.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:34 AM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

unspokenlove.

My Child...

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. I know when you sit down and when you rise up. I am familiar with all your ways. Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. For you were made in my image. In me you live and move and have your being. For you are my offspring. I knew you even before you were conceived. I chose you when I planned creation. You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I knit you together in your mother's womb. And brought you forth on the day you were born. I have been misrepresented by those who do not know me. I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. For I am the Perfect father. Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Because I love you with an everlasting love. My thoughts towards you are countless as the sand on the seashore. And I rejoice over you with singing. I will never stop doing good to you. For you are my treasured possessions. I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. And I want to show you great and marvelous things. If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. For it is I who gave you those desires. I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. For I am your greatest encourager. I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. When you are broken-hearted, I am close to you. As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. One day i will wipe away every tear from your eyes. And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. For in Jesus, My love for you is revealed. He is the exact representation of my being. Ha came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled His death was the ultimate expression of my love to you. I gave up everything I loved that i might gain your love. If you receive the gift of my son, Jesus, you receive me. And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. I have always been Father, and will always be Father. My question is...Will you be my child?
I am waiting for you.

Love,
Your Dad
Almighty God

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:48 PM

change.

decided to do a mini revamp on my blog. the major one will not come any time soon. i'm too caught up playing sims 2 to continue on my blogskin. haha! but...it'll be up and dazzling everyone. soon(: but for now...i have received complaints from my stalkers x) that my blog is such an eyesore to look at yet alone read. that i apologise. i guess everyone is tired of the black look that my blog displays. though the meaning behind that string of words of my blog "picture" means a lot to me(: but don't worry! soon everything will soon be mixtures of whites and blacks (that includes greys as well!) :D plus gold! how can this royalty not have gold on her blog?!?! be ready to be BLINGED my friends(: but now...just a little slight adjustments to my fonts. (my all time favourite Century Gothic has been struck down by readers...to my 2nd all time favourite...GEORGIA!) i'm sort of loving this ;) haha! who am i kidding? i'm absolutely adoring this! lol...oh and i decided to include a title to my posts. so if they make not head or tail to you...just ignore it and read the post. alright? love! <3

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:21 PM

Friday, June 19, 2009

i just saw something really hilarious on facebook. hahaha! someone created a fanpage for BFF mu'en! hahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!! was laughing my head off. this i got to tell him. lol...

anyway...going to bed now! goodnight world! :D

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:48 AM

Thursday, June 18, 2009

today is the crappiest day ever. the first accidental thing i did in the morning was to damage my ear pieces. badly. so badly that i had to solder back the wires so that my $27 doesn't go down the drain. the second accidental thing i did was to do the soldering. wrongly. so wrongly that my bro had to help me solder the wires properly. the third accidental thing i did was to let my bro do the soldering. terribly. so terribly that by the time he was done...the soldering worked for less than 1 minute. after 3 attempt made by ME (not my bro) i finally got it working. but it's in a highly fragile state. so fragile that at the slightest wrong movement, there might be no sound at all :( you get my point.

sighs...

if you're seeing this watt wei hao...i'm in need of your ipod earphone. badly. oh and i still want breaking dawn!!! :(

encounter retreat tomorrow. boy am i going to freak myself out tomorrow. hopefully not. :X staying overnight in church. than cell + service on saturday. i'm feeling nervous for some unknown reason :( at least xiaoming & liangjingjing are going tomorrow...2 of the people i get along quite well in the small group. so i'm happy :D yay!

okay. i shall go and bathe now. oh...isaiah chia!!! get well soon! and i hope you're still craving for chicken mcnuggets!!! hahahahaha!!! (:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 9:33 PM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i actually wanted to blog now...but seeing at how late it is...i'l blog tmr(:

missing all those people away at church camp in malaysia already :(

sarah!!! haha! come home soon! :D i miss you! :X lol...

alright. goodnight everybody(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 1:55 AM

Sunday, June 14, 2009

church today. sighs. i feel so exhausted. i think i almost fainted during praise and worship. i'm currently feeling unwell, due to the fact that i walked under the rain in the evening on my way to dinner. i think i caught the cold. or maybe swine flu. i don't mind being the first person dying of swine flu in singapore. whatever.

tuition tomorrow. going to bed now. bye.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:40 AM

you know what sucks? it's that people around you change. and i'm not talking minor changes. like getting a new hair cut, a new pair of spectacles, a new dressing style. seriously whatever. i'm talking about change where people you love dearly aren't even the same at all anymore. sighs. i'm utterly disappointed. when i heard that the rumours are true, it really hit me in the head that i absolutely don't know you anymore at all. who cares if we were best friends eons ago? i thought we were like childhood friends or something. apparently not. and imagine my ecstasy when i found out you were attending the same school as me after years of seeing you, then going to the same secondary school together. seeing you change for the worse. "condemn the act, not the person" or something like that. whatever your reason is, i'd love to hear your side of the story. but i guess that we'll probably never ever get to speak to each other again. i miss you, and you'll always be that cute little girl i knew when i was a kid in my heart.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:13 AM

Monday, June 08, 2009

i'm compelled to blog now for some reason. haha!

anyway...i spent my day trying to do my holiday assignments. but to no avail. the moment my parent's left, all hell broke loose. not literally. the "i'm gonna use the computer!!!" monster broke free, while in my heart i was trying to tame it. i failed miserably as you have realised. haha! i spent my day watching 4 movies: twilight, marley & me, spy house and ice princess. yes. i'm a no-lifer. thanks for reminding me. seriously. i just watched twilight somewhat 2 days ago, yet i'm drawn by the urge to watch it again. see what i mean by no-lifer? but it was fun! in a way.

i'm currently 5 questions down in all of my assignments, with a thousand more to go. seriously...the teachers all think that their subject is the only subject we're taking. and i know i say that all the time...but it's true! even though O levels ARE in a few months...there really isn't even time to complete all the homework. one math worksheet alone took my 2 hours, and i didn't even complete it. i did 5 questions. but each question had 5 parts to it. so i did 25 questions actually. it's insane when you think about it. i really hate it so much.

i'm going to be kicked out of tuition. i don't know when. but miss chew has already made herself clear. i have no idea why i was so tired this morning i totally refuse to wake up. and when i finally did, it was already 10.55am. and i had tuition at 11.00am. i was late by half an hour when i finally got to miss chew's house. man...i was so dead. she said she was going to *quote* deal with me *unquote* when she had the time. great...just great. and i'm trying to fnd a way to convince her that i'll change...but she has given me 3 years to change. too late.

bumped into mu'en at bukit batok interchange. begged him to eat lunch with me cause i didn't have money with me and i was absolutely starving. sighs. long story short, he left me fuming and furious.

okay...i officially turned this post to a rant. i guess this is like the only way for me to vent my anger and frustration. i stopped writing in my diary for like weeks. yes yes i know. i'm a sad emo kid who keeps a diary just to make sure i have my sanity in check. i'm turning to God now. bye world!(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:28 AM

Sunday, June 07, 2009

ahh...crap. my ear is bleeding. kind of. and it hurts. badly :( aww crap. :X

radical conference has officially ended! i'm sad yet happy! i've gained so much from this year's radical conference! i just keeps getting better every year! i can't wait till next year! radical conference '10! oh yeah! loving it! i really love SHIRElive band and the pastors that came! pastor greg crowe, pastor dave reardon & pastor chris long! i love all of them! they're really amazing people! met this really amazing girl from the band called melissa. she's the bomb seriously. and...the plus point is that she's the splitting image of estherlyn from a far. not up close though. haha!

promised God so many things during radical conference. and i'm going to carry it all out! no more empty promises. i hate empty promises, and now i know exactly how hurt God feels when i keep promising Him stuff that i don't carry through in the end. but His hurt will be like times a million of mine. wow...it's scary.

oh...i just realised i didn't mention our little "core group outing" to unity funfair today. it was fun. in a way. oh my...the band called the unnamed. whoa...bad vocals. seriously...i wonder how irvin and the rest of the church people met their lead vocal. cause the guy really can't sing! :X the funfair was overall...boring. but i have to admit. unity secondary's campus is really big, compared to fairfield's.

tuition tomorrow. kind of dreading it. i've like a quarter of my tuition homework that needs to be handed in tomorrow undone. i really shouldn't be blogging now. i should be doing my tuition homework/sleeping! haha! alright! i shall go now. adios! (:

ganbette mabel!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:23 AM

Thursday, June 04, 2009

today's english seminar was crap. thankfully i didn't get lost. well almost. abi-joy thought i was really lost when she heard me saying i was at orchard when i was on the phone with her. haha!

went 7-eleven for lunch. haha! had the crab & cheese pizza bar and the tuna & cheese pizza bar. yum! currently my favourite! :D oh and i bought 2 lollipops :D i have been deprived of my lollipops though my sugar intake is really high everyday. i really need to cut down on the sugar before i officially die of diabetes. haha!

decided to take a different route home from the one i usually take from dhoby gauht home. took 77 then transferred to 67 from the usual bus-stop i take 67 from :D haha!

went home to slack for a while while i waited for my beloved twin cousin to call me and arrange meeting time. met up with her at bukit batok bus interchange. saw annabel from choir and weiyan! haha! took 852 to macritchie reservoir. rented the kayak for one hour! had so much fun! thank you twin cousin!

can't wait for tmr! the long awaited radical conference has arrived! haha! i'm so excited!!! but there's tuition from 4.30 to 6.30pm. hope i won't be too tired from radical conference after tuition.

still having my tummyache from this evening. sucks luh! :( ah well...okay i shall go now. i'm so tired that i'm yawning till tears are falling out :X haha! bye all!(:

i'll hold on tight and never let go.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:31 AM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

had geog today. was so super tired. the doritos and oreo and top chocolate we ate in class perked me up a little. but i'm still exhausted until now.

there's the o level english seminar tomorrow at 8.30am. i still have no idea how to get to the place where the seminar is being held. i'm thinking that i'll be too exhausted to even wake up. man i am WAY tired :(

anyway...met weihao and gabriel lee on the way home. so coincidental. weihao cut his hair until it looks lyk crap. hahaha! i'm sorry.

can't wait till radical conference in 2 days! i'm excited!!! :D

alright! dinner time!(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 6:03 PM

Monday, June 01, 2009

today...was a good yet bad day. i shall talk about the bad first. the paper today sucked. so it'll really be a miracle if i get my A1. oh God...please help me :X

now about the good. went out with kirbs, sarah and 3mao to jurong point. it was fun! haha! had a good type shopping of clothes that 3mao needed for his class tomorrow. haha! and sarah had a good time playing his "mom". sarah!! you have what it takes to be a mom already! hahahahaha!

going for tuition on thursday at 4.30 instead of friday at 7. at least after tuition on thursday i can rush down to church for radical conference. i don't really wanna miss like a whole chunk of radical conference on friday. so glad that miss chew allowed me to change. i thought she might not agree.

alright...nothing much to update currently. oh except for a thing that is currently bothering me. read something in someone's note. it's like ALARMING. and strange. of all 26 possibilities the person had to pick that one. and now the person is being really dense. even if it's just random...how could it be this close it's exactly the same? haix...i shall say my favourite line of all time "please shoot me now".

my feelings will never change,
so stop using that against me.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:13 PM