her royal highness.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

letter.

i'm binge eating cause i'm unhappy :( i just downed 6 pieces of bak kuah, a chunk of chocolate, and i'm currently soothing my throat of them heaty food by drinking a packet of soft drink. (yes...i actually do eat a lot of unhealthy food :D but it doesn't help me gain weight at all) but i didn't eat dinner...so it should be fine. haha! (maybe that's why i'm not gaining weight?)

anyway...cut my own fringe just now cause it was getting too long. now it's in the form of bangs. but i'm hoping it doesn't look weird to others. it doesn't look very weird to me. i didn't cut it too short. just above my eyes. i was upset see...and since i don't like to self-mutilated/ self-inflict damage to myself (yesterday's fall was purely an accident) i decided to cut my hair. hahahaha!

and seriously? my arm still HURTS from yesterday. i still don't know how the stool shifted causing my fall :( i'm not even that heavy.

sighs...you don't even seem to be worried about what happened. and what was that two pats on my head for? i don't understand. you're just starting to seem even more distant than we already were before :X

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:05 PM

Friday, February 12, 2010

cheekychocolate!

hello! i'm at cheeky chocolate now! using alan's laptop. haha! all alan's fault luh! drag me here! hmph! :( hahahaha! kidding alan! i know you're gonna read this somehow :D anyway...i don't know what to say already. haha! just wanted to blog for fun! so now i'm going alr! bye!!!(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 10:11 PM

high.

i just wanna faint and die now. like seriously...

are you seriously that happy???

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 2:12 AM

faint.

ohmygosh!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna faint alr!!! first kr then alan. this is so retarded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! scandalous. DAMN SCANDALOUS! hahahahaha! i shall not elaborate any further before i die of shock or something. i'm still feeling very AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH about just now. lol............

tmr is fixing machine day! and rey genius-ly put me on shift alone. i wonder who's coming in to help fix the machine tmr. haha! hope it's novem and marc! :D and then i wonder who's gonna help mend the shop while i'm on my break...maybe rey? haha! okay...i don't know.

i'm waiting for sheevonne to faster bathe finish so that we can analyse everything that happened today. hahaha! ohmygosh...this is so retarded! i feel so high now! so high that i don't even feel tired anymore. lol...i just feel like crawling under my blanket and hide there forever! half of me wished today didn't happen while the other half wishes that something else will happen tmr. hahahaha!

this week turned out to be a good one! haha! super happy! THANK GOD!!! for bring me through this week, and having crazy friends to cheer me up and and make me high! like sheevonne, allie, xinya, penny, jervic...etc. but the cheeky choco auntie who's my "mom". lol...she everyday call me nu'er. lol...plus freaky, creepy and cheeky dudes! haha! plus he supervisor who's very nice. lol...and today the cheeky chocolate literally dragged me to cheeky chocolate to sample food just because of......BUT i wouldn't budge at all... hahah!!! no matter how hard she tried to drag me. LOL...

okay enough rants for today...i'm gonna continue making my bookmark! BYE!(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:46 AM

Monday, February 08, 2010

terrified.

i feel like crawling under my blankets now and never come out of it. i fear the worse for next week. 3 consecutive days of...sighs...this is one of the worse schedules i've ever gotten. sighs...

God, please give me the strength and courage to face up to my fears in the next few days. i'm scared. terrified actually, of what might even happen. guard my heart and keep me in Your arms at all times. and i pray that i'll be able to find alex!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:37 AM

Saturday, February 06, 2010

breakdown.

i wish this kind of crappy situations would stop happening every single week, everyday at every waking moment. seriously. wadtheheck man! everything thing is just getting worse and worse. like i'm so bloody pissed off. work, church, life in general. damn bloody irritating! why can't situations just stop occurring???????????

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 11:59 PM

Thursday, February 04, 2010

drama.

i don't even need to watch anymore dramas...my life is one major production of one.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 9:53 PM

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

idon'tevenknowyou.

this is getting more ridiculous by the second. firstly...I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU? and you don't even know me! yet you can come up with such ridiculous comments and judge me. you should get a trophy for that man. JOKE! secondly...even if i do go back...there's nothing you can do about it. so SUCK IT UP! and keep your stupid little opinions to yourself because i don't really care cause they aren't even true. and thirdly...as seniors, you guys can be really immature...do you guys really like spending your time cooking up stories to tell the whole world? stories that aren't even true at all? now that all the tears are gone...i just feel angry. like seriously. and i really take pity on you guys cause you guys don't even know how to grow up.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:33 AM

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

damnit!

CRAP!!! i forgot that they're friends! would she turn her against me even before we even met with her stupid dumbass rumors??? we shall wait and see tomorrow...

finally saw jolene today! haha! i miss you! :D i miss thomas and caleb too! :( haix...tomorrow doing closing again...sighs...another long day tomorrow...

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:28 AM

Monday, February 01, 2010

you'reouttogetme.

argh!!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot stand it already!!! she's totally out to get me!! what in the world did i do to her?? she starts spreading dumb untrue and hurtful rumors about me to everyone, saying that i ordered her around and didn't help her?? JOKE! more like the other way around. i feel so bloody accused! wadtheheck man! and for your info...i didn't throw away that piece of paper! he did! cause you stupidly wrote it using his name! and then you think it was me. haha! you're seriously hilarious. don't think you're very big. cause for a person your age...you can be seriously immature. immature enough to do this kind of rubbish and ruin someone's reputation! i think you should go back to primary school or something to learn some basic values like love and respect. you can turn everyone against me and let everyone judge me. but in the end the person who will be judged is you. my conscience is clear. i hope yours is too.

everything just finally crashed on saturday. i really couldn't take it anymore. i've been holding everything back for the past week. but all hell broke lose on saturday. i couldn't contain the tears anymore. i cried for my grandma, i cried cause i felt so accused, i cried cause people are always getting others to hate me by spreading untrue rumors. i really had enough of everything already. what did i do? TELL ME! damn it. what's wrong with you???

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! screw this. i've had enough!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:46 AM