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Monday, March 08, 2010

i'madeadcat.

cause curiosity killed me.

anyway...today was a happy day!!! all negativity and unhappiness aside...today was a good but tiring day! ivan gege made my day when he came by to parkway just to see me! awww!! so sweet! thanks gege for making my day! haha! :D love you loads!!!

i think i'm high now...cause i drank the aloe vera syrup straight from a cup, slightly diluted with ice. haha! yes i know you think i'm psycho! well...too bad! i am :D haha! my sweet tooth just overwhelms me sometimes(: but i gave all my lollipops to the cheeky choc people! so i have none left...haha! i still owe kid one lollipop. lol...

got the notebook package from NP on saturday! korkor was drooling all over it. haha! cause he's jealous of the laptops' high specs! hahaha! sorry kor! who ask you have to be 2 years older than me? (x haha! i didn't even have to choose which laptop i should get.(they didn't even have vaio :X) haha! cause kor just chose it for me. which is of course the most high end and most expensive one. hahaha! thanks korkor! haha! you rock :D so now...i'll just buy that, an external HDD and a thumbdrive and i'm good to go! hahaha! kidding! lol...can't wait till school starts! excited like mad!!! :D

i'm still considering about going back into part-time. but i think i've almost made up my mind! thanks shev for supporting me! :D love you loads too! hahaha! i have no qualms about it anymore! it's been settled! i need to recharge my internal battery for school within the next 1 month, which means...NO SLEEPING LATE! i don't want to look like a panda :( yesterday korkor got a shock when he came into my room. i think i looked like a ghost or something. haha! don't worry! i'll be fine in no time at all! :D

lots of things to buy!!! still got no time to buy them though!! :( that's why the decision to go back into part-time. i think i have enough money saved up to last me for one or two semesters, provided i don't anyhow spend my money, and then i'll still be working while i study, to continue earning money for my next semester's expenses! i want to rely on myself to pay for my expenses, besides meals! i wanna be independent! and i don't wanna be a burden to daddy and mommy :( i know they have spent a lot of money on me. like surgery expenses, all my toys, clothes, computer, etc...so now must start to be independent and start relying on myself(:

dear God, thank you for today, all the little conversations You had with me and the little encouragements that You've given to me to pull me through this long and tiring sunday! thank You! and for making my day when gege came to visit!(: i just want to dwell in Your spirit constantly, every hour, minute and second, never failing to recognize that You are always there supporting me and guiding me, giving me the strength that i need. and for always constantly reminding me that You love me, and that i should store up my riches in heaven, instead of seeking earthly pleasure to fulfill my sinful desires. sorry, for falling into temptation and twisting Your arm. knowing that i should not test You, by jumping head first into an unknown situation, and getting myself nearly killed spiritually, emotionally and physically by my own silly actions. but You still rescued me in the end, something that i'll be eternally grateful for. You taught me how to love and be forgiving. but teach me how to love myself and forgive myself too. just like what ken said. i want to be able to love my neighbours and enemies as myself, but if i don't love myself, how do i love them? WWJD! what would Jesus do in this situation? thanks for reminding me to think in that direction today, before doing stupid things. now i've come to my senses. forgive me for storing up anger, sadness, hurt, bitterness, jealousy, greed, vengeance and hate in my heart for the past few weeks. but i'm slowly letting these feelings go, not by my own strength, but by relying on Yours. humans' love is flawed in so many ways. but Yours is perfect all around. thank You for this love You have shown me, which i now can show others. i want to shine Your light in the darkest place, and bring hope to your creations! amen!

today has been a great day, and i truly thank God for it! :D

i'm off to watch a movie before i sleep! :D goodnight people!(:

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

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