today's sermon really got me thinking. again. somehow i feel that the closer you get to God, the more temptations we will experience. we can never truly be free from temptations, unless, like what PD said, if we're dead. the devil will always be trying to tempt us, to draw us away from God. so the more tempted we are, the better. isn't that right? cause it'll mean that our relationship with God is very good. for me...i'm not facing any big temptations right now, because my relationship with God isn't that fantastic. i know it's not fantastic, and i'm really trying to work on it. the other part that set me thinking is that God changes us little by little. our bad habits have taken years to develop. we can't just be rid of them the moment we accept Christ. but it's through Christ that we know that they are bad habits, and they are wrong. and then God can change us slowly. i honestly think that God uses people to reveal the bad habits that we have. like you! surprisingly yes, you! it's through our friendship that i got to see the flaws that i have. the experience we had brought that selfish, jealous and hot-tempered monster out of me. i know i was like that last time, but i never wanted to admit it. but after everything that went down, i really truly admit that i'm selfish, jealous and hot-tempered. God placed you into my life for a reason, so that i can learn a lesson. and through this lesson, i can learn to be a better me. i really thank God for you. i want to be a better me. i want to be more Christ-like. i want to stop messing up my friendships and relationships because of my bad habits.

sighs...i was a little annoyed today :( i don't know why. i wanted to have a good time. spending the day with the people i love. but sighs...i was just annoyed. and a little sad. i tried not to think so much. i tried not to over-analyse things. sighs...so moody right now :( just lying on my pillow with my laptop, and hugging my bear. feel like crying :( i miss you! sighs...

i shall go play NFSU2 or something to cheer up. sighs...bye!