i miss him! this is so irrational but i do D: gosh...it's been 3 months and 2 days. yet it feels like 6 months. sometimes i just stone and think about us. and then i remember how i screwed up and how i hurt you, and how i let her affect me so much. and how i didn't control all my emotions, and how everything went downwards spiraling after that tuesday night. :( seeing you on monday. another wave of emotions and thoughts. i thought i'd let go. but apparently not. :X

i'm tired but i can't sleep. why can't everything just come to a stand still so i can fix everything one by one.

my dear girl, what the heck are you doing to your own life????? you honestly deserve a slap from yourself. can you start walking with God and working on your spiritual life and stop slacking? can you please start studying and stop slacking. can you please grow up and stop making people worried about you all the time?? WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU?????????