her royal highness.

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

offthegrid.

and so i finally did it. i finally went off the grid. took me a while. had so many things to settle. but it's fine. just a few more months to tide through and i'll secretly re-emerge somehow or rather. this is the only thing keeping me sane right now. but soon, this may or may not disappear as well. it will be decided sooner or later, depending or certain sirumstances that may or may not arise. we shall see.

and i think i hit my head too hard on the floor just now. meh...i have a bump and a splitting headache to go along with it now. note to self, if i ever want to bump my head to death, just hit harder and get over with it. i think i have a self-inflicted concussion now. but i should be used to it by now. haha. sorry, i'm a tad masochistic at night. and suicidal as well..haha!

i shall cease my rant and bring it somewhere else. time to dig out that old friend of mine. bye!

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 2:20 AM

hellishlife.

The life of an empath. Being able to feel the emotions of those around you, but no one understands or gives a damn about what you feel. I pride myself in the fact that I'm a very god listener when it comes to people having problems or needing someone to rant. But the favour is never returned. Either people don't care or they jsut don't care or have never experienced it.

Maybe I've been through more than my fair share of life, so I understand better. My 19 years on this earth has not been a smooth sailing one. If that's so, maybe this is my so-called calling/purpose here in this body? My God driven purpose? To be the listener? I should start reading the Bible more. I wish I could find a Bible character who's been through this. Who knows how it feels to have people coming to you asking for help and opinions, but when help or comfort is needed, there's no one to go to.

Right now, all I want to do is get today over and done with, so I can go off and escape into my own world.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 1:26 AM

Sunday, July 29, 2012

invisible.

give me one damn good reason why i should disappear off the face of this earth. if you don't want me, i'm fine with it. i can survive on my own free will.

going straight to invisible. i don't have to try anyway. i've always been invisible.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 7:06 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2012

process.

after awhile, you just stop trusting the world.

hello&goodbye.

mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3

my fantasy world. ♥ 12:25 AM