her highness.
3.5.93; seventeen'10NP-ian; biomedical laboratory technology
COSBT
impactLIFE; newLIFE
lollipop princess!
eternal maknae! ♥
strange addiction.
we're members of GOD's family,
we're children of the KING;
because we've put our faith in CHRIST,
to us HE'll always cling.♥
her loves.
GODalan; alex; ariel; jalq; gene; violet; ian; winnie
purple
family
besties
cell
fahrenheit!
wuzun!
super junior!
ryeowook! sungmin! donghae!
blueberry tea!
lollipop!
froyo!
ice-skating!
puzzles!
her wishes.
sony vaio cs 36GJ! [berry purple]PSP! [purple/black]
handphone [htc touch pro 2]
iPod nano gen 4 [purple]
puzzles!
run away; meg cabot
twilight saga box set
farenheit's 2nd album. :D
her talk.
her loyal subjects.
abi-joy low.celeste lim.
dai jun hong.
isaiah chia.
loh junyi.
actsONE; actsPLOSIVES
abi-joy low.darius chng.
doreen neo.
esther lyn.
sarah chin.
trevor lee.
watt weihao.
her memories.
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Saturday, September 15, 2012
consultation.
i realised my life is in a mess. because i just jumped without consulting God about my choices in life. i just jumped on the next available bandwagon and got dragged down the road of hell. like in my current crisis in BLT. thinking about the scholarship, sigh...another opportunity like this will not come for a while, in fact, it may not come ever again. which country would give you a chance to apply for a scholarship with a minimum of 2.64 GPA? i could get the same marks i did this sem for next sem and i would still be eligible to apply for it. but it's korea, and everyone would be fighting for it. this next one month or maybe more will be hectic and stressful. applications close the day school starts. right on that very day. i need to start having a plan, and backup plan, and a backup backup plan. twice over.
dajie and oppa are "pushing" me to apply. what do i have to lose? but i need to know. what are my future career options gonna be if i do get it. what will happen next? i'm excited, estatic, and scared. i'm downright scared in fact. not because i don't think i can survive alone in korea, but that this decision will not be approved. by the One higher up there. and the people around me. my family. what will happen? it scares me to even think. one wrong move and everything will tip over, and i'll be left for dead.
i've not been myself the past few days, or should i say i'm reverting back to the old me from a few months ago. i told myself that i'd be strong. that i won't shed useless tears. but maybe my plan is back-firing on me for keeping everything so bottled up for the past few weeks, even months. it was bound to back-fire eventually.
i need to stop tweeting about my life so openly. somethings are better off left unknown. but i just can't help it. words, sentences, poems, lyrics. things i create just seem to pour out. i need to put a cork in it.
mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3
my fantasy world. ♥ 3:37 AM