her highness.
3.5.93; seventeen'10NP-ian; biomedical laboratory technology
COSBT
impactLIFE; newLIFE
lollipop princess!
eternal maknae! ♥
strange addiction.
we're members of GOD's family,
we're children of the KING;
because we've put our faith in CHRIST,
to us HE'll always cling.♥
her loves.
GODalan; alex; ariel; jalq; gene; violet; ian; winnie
purple
family
besties
cell
fahrenheit!
wuzun!
super junior!
ryeowook! sungmin! donghae!
blueberry tea!
lollipop!
froyo!
ice-skating!
puzzles!
her wishes.
sony vaio cs 36GJ! [berry purple]PSP! [purple/black]
handphone [htc touch pro 2]
iPod nano gen 4 [purple]
puzzles!
run away; meg cabot
twilight saga box set
farenheit's 2nd album. :D
her talk.
her loyal subjects.
abi-joy low.celeste lim.
dai jun hong.
isaiah chia.
loh junyi.
actsONE; actsPLOSIVES
abi-joy low.darius chng.
doreen neo.
esther lyn.
sarah chin.
trevor lee.
watt weihao.
her memories.
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Tuesday, January 13, 2015
2015.
I tried my best to mend as many things before I left. But I guess there's a limit to how much I can do as well? I'm tired of trying so hard, but I know if I don't, no one will at all.
It's only been two weeks, yet I'm starting to mess everything up again. At this point in time, I feel so useless and pathetic. I know that I'm naturally clumsy and forgetful, maybe even disregard certain things sometimes, but I hate how it's become my character. I don't want to be like this.
Always so apologetic to you. I really thought that we're okay now, but I don't know anymore. I can't bring myself to think about you because I will fall back into that dark hole from 5 months ago, and it really was not a happy place. I'm sorry that I need to guard my heart more stringently, but I honestly wished that I could have told you about everything. Right now, I can't even face you for what I did. I'm sorry, but sorries will never be enough anymore. Nothing I do will be able to bring back the past.
If I could, I wish I could go back to four or five days ago and start all over again.
I wish I will do better. I want to do better. But I don't know where to start. I wish you were here with me to lend me a shoulder or give me a hug.
I love you and I'm sorry.
Doing badly in school, doing badly at work. School in the morning, work the rest of the day. I think I would have lost my soul by the end of the month. School and two jobs on hand, I don't know how I'm ever going to survive.
To a fruitful 2015, even though there's been a lot of bad starts already. Goodnight.
mabTHONG.
lollipop princess! <3
my fantasy world. ♥ 11:25 PM